2019 trials and tribulation · Black girl magic · Faith · Life after a coma · Sickle Cell Disease · Thoughts · Warriors

The day I went to sleep

coma is a deep state of unconsciousness. An individual in acoma is alive but unable to move or respond to his or her environment. Coma may occur as a complication of an underlying illness, or as a result of injuries, such as brain injury. A coma rarely lasts more than 2 to 4 weeks

September 5,2014 was my last normal day because on September 6 I had a sickle cell crisis which put me in a coma 3 days later. September 9, 2014 is the day I fell asleep. I an not sure if I should call it an anniversary or my re-birthday. Meaning, I fell into a coma which lasted for six weeks. SO, maybe my re-birthday is actually six weeks later when I finally woke up either way I am blessed to be here. They call me a miracle, correction I am God’s Miracle. I am his Child and I will go home when he tells me it’s time to come home. There were doubts on everyone’s mind even a few family members that I would be here today, much less writing about this experience of waking up after a coma. After the original 6 weeks of sleeping, I spent two months in Rehabilitation, learning how to walk, read write and talk. Plus another two months of in-home physical therapy and speech therapy.

At the time I felt it was a waste of time because last memory I had was an office Manager, I could walk, talk, and I was educated with a M.Ed. degree. No one explained to me about the coma and what took place. Thinking back as I write this, I probably won’t understand or listen. I was irrational.

Some questions I have been asked thus far – Do you remember? Did you hear anyone? Did you see anyone? Did you know. know anything…

Answer: No and I still have no memory of anything.

Question: Were you in an accident?

Answer: No – I have Sickle Cell disease.

Question: What is that?

Answer: Sickle cell disease is a group of disorders that affects hemoglobin, the molecule in red blood cells that delivers oxygen to cells throughout the body. People with this disorder have atypical hemoglobin molecules called hemoglobin S, which can distort red blood cells into a sickle, or crescent, shape.

I still doubt the pictures, I know they say seeing is believing 5 years later I am still in dis belief. The only thing that proves the pictures right is my life after 9/9/14.

What happened in the coma – I had a transient ischemic attack (TIA) is a stroke that lasts only a few minutes. It happens when the blood supply to part of the brain is briefly blocked. Symptoms of a TIA are like other stroke symptoms, but do not last as long. They happen suddenly, and include. Numbness or weakness, especially on one side of the body. What happened in the coma – Mine was multiple, so many that nothing could be done, the good news it caused my brain to bleed but the blood came out on it’s own so no surgery needed to be done. But the damage was done and now I live with cognitive impairment.

I had kidney Dialysis, all my organs failed.

Today, I want to Thank God for waking me up and all the lessons I have learned even though it was the hard way.

Thank you for showing me that when I am down to nothing LITERALLY, you are up to something.

Thank you for removing people in my life that I was not strong enough to remove.

Thank you for loving me unconditionally, when I thought no one loved me.

Thank you no allowing me space to give up.

Thank you for closing doors, that I did not know were not meant for me.

Thank you for opening doors, that I did not know I needed or wanted opened.

Thank you for showing me snakes in the grass,

Thank you for allowing me to trust you to handle wolves in sheep’s clothing,

Thank you for blessing, even when I did not ask you for a anything but you knew I needed it.

Thank you for shutting down my naysayers.

Thank for letting me know, accept and understand that I am your child and no weapon formed against me shall prosper.

Thank you for understanding me heart and my mind when I couldn’t read.

Thank you for allowing me to know you, because I always thought I knew you, but I never really knew you.

Thank you for not letting or allowing me to give up, because many days I cried out to you to let me go.

Thank you for daily strength to trust the process.

Thank you for giving me more chances without judgment, because somethings take me longer to learn.

Thank you for helping me work on my discernment spirit, because many times my willingness to forgive and accept gets me in trouble.

Thank you for not giving me everything I asked for but only what I need.

Thank you for answering my prayers even only in your time and not mine, because that balanced me out.

Thank you for rejection, because it has helped me build character and patience.

Thank you for letting me know I AM ENOUGH, so I can heal my heart from broken pieces of lies, cheaters, deception and emotional abused cause by others.

Thank you for renewing my faith daily, especially when my believe was in unbelief.

Thank you for giving me understanding and acceptance to believe I was created in your own image, so I can begin to love myself again.

Thank you letting me know my story, my testimony is not over, and that you still have work for me to do even if I question what, where and how, just know I believe with all my heart.

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