As my surgery date draws closer—(for those just joining, it’s my left shoulder replacement due to Avascular Necrosis caused by Sickle Cell)—I find myself facing something unfamiliar:
Fear.
Usually, I stare surgeries in the face, armor on, ready to fight.
But this time…
Maybe I’m just tired.
Maybe sickle cell is wearing me down more than I want to admit.
Maybe the enemy is whispering louder than usual.
Or maybe—the Devil is a liar, and so is fear.
After all:
- I survived a coma.
- I survived life as a sickler.
- I survived my right shoulder replacement.
So why should this surgery steal my peace?
A Song in the Storm
Today, the song “Fear is a Liar” by Zach Williams played on repeat in my mind.
And just yesterday, without even knowing what I was battling, a dear friend sent me “I Am Not Alone” by Kari Jobe.
God’s timing is never random.
The words hit me like a wave of comfort:
*”When I walk through deep waters, I know You will be with me.
When I’m standing in the fire, I will not be overcome.
Through the valley of the shadow, I will not fear.
I am not alone.
You
Lies fear have told me:
You are not strong enough – I can do ALL things through Christ who give me strength – Philippians 4:13
You’re not beautiful enough – God created man in his own image, in the image of God he created them: Male and female he created them – Genesis 1:27. Yes I have some scares but they tell the story of when the devil tried to destroy me but I won.
You’ll forever be alone -“But Jesus often drew to the wilderness for prayer” Luke 5:16. I might be single now but God needs me to focus on him
You should be ashamed – ” Let us approach God’s throne of Grace with confidence, so we may receive mercy find grace to help us in our time of need” Hebrews 4:16
You’re not Loved – “For God so loved the world that he gave his only son, that whosoever believes in him shall not perish but have everlasting life”
You’ll never find a home – “In my father’s house are many mansions: if it were not so I would have told you. I go to prepare a place for you” John 14:2
You could be the one that grace could never change – His grace and mercy brought me through.
Phoenix: Live Love Laugh 
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