2020 Decade · Black girl magic · Feelings · Life after a coma · Sickle Cell Disease · Spiritual, devotion · Warriors

Chapter 48

Chapter 48

WOW!! and just like that Chapter 47 ended and I enter a new era today. I am so elated at how far God has brought me. I will lift up my eyes unto the hills from whence cometh my help. My help cometh from the Lord, The Lord which made heaven and earth. He brought me through a six week coma, that had a very slim chance of surviving or being able to function. Through liver disease, and through Sickle Cell Disease. Through three major joint replacement, several hospitalizations, blood transfusions, plasma transfusions, Traumatic Brain injury from several mini strokes causing cognitive disability, memory loss, Post traumatic Stress Disorder (PTSD), normally we think of solders and war when we talk about PTSD and honestly I thought so to but it is actually a condition may last months or years, with triggers that can bring back memories of the trauma accompanied by intense emotional and physical reactions. Even if I have no memory of my coma because my mind forgot so I can heal – but my body never forgot the ever ending Trauma it had been in for six years. God brought me through depression, anxiety and sadness. All still a work in progress. Some may not understand my gratitude to life or my faith but without God I would never has made it to enter my new chapter 48. I sing because I am happy, I sing because I am free. When I say I am free, when I say I am grateful, when I say I am full of gratitude you may not understand and probably will never understand what it means to wake up without pain until you have spent years in pain.

When my mom asked what I wanted for my birthday this year? I replied nothing. I have everything I need, once I wake up with no pain, in my own bed, a roof over my head, I am content and grateful. I remember sleeping on an air mattress in pain, my account always in the negative, only groceries I could afford was from the dollar tree (not saying it was bad because I still go there for my goodies) but it was the only place I could afford. I embrace 48 as I know that the lord plans for me to prosper.

If you think when you have money, fame, and worldly passions you are blessed – then you know nothing about what it really means to be blessed.

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