Good Bye 2019

It’s been a while I have been able to sit and write something, but the hip journey had been difficult. I finally had my surgery on December 13, 2019. I spent my 47th birth in pain and about 8 hours discharged from the hospital, Thanksgiving was a lonely dinner and Christmas was spent sleeping the day away. This is my last post for 2019. As my year ends with it’s many trials and tribulations caused by or because of having Sickle Cell SC Hemoglobin disease I would like to reflect on it. This year has been my 5th year of life after a coma and I could make a list of everything that has gone wrong or what I have lost but instead I am choosing to focus on it in a nutshell by saying it has has been very tiring, painful, worrisome and some days depressing but, having made it through 2 major surgeries this year I can say I am ending 2019 like a BOSS and one of God’s faithful warriors. I questioned, I cried, I stressed, I cried some more, I prayed, I rejoiced, I triumphed, I laughed, I felt pain, I lost more friends, I found new friends and myself again, I am filled with gratitude, and I am grateful that I NEVER gave up and did not quit.

For the first time in my life I have gone 5 years without a Sickle Cell Crisis, for me that is an absolute miracle. Prior to that my longest was 2 years. This year has been the first time in 5 years I feel mental freedom, making me feel at peace with my cognitive damage and accepting the mental damage done and figuring out how to work around it.

One of the things I learned in 2019 and is still learning is that “Taking control of my life creates immense pressure I was never meant to bear. Giving God control of my life creates peace I can fully understand”.

My next post will document my journey of my hip replacement, tomorrow I will be having my staples removed. (2.5 weeks after surgery). I have pretty much been bedridden from since the surgery, there are so many rules in hip surgery which I will discuss in my next post.

I have prayed that this is my last year of major surgeries because of sickle cell disease.

I am walking in 2020 with a promise and a purpose…….. A promise from God and a purpose that I have to fulfill, when the time is right.

2019 was my first year of blogging my journey, I have learned a lot and I am ready to do a better job at blogging my like in 2020 better than I did this year. I was a little scattered and all over the place.