Hello readers, I haven’t blogged in a while two main reason technology may be helpful when it’s functioning at it’s best but, when it isn’t can be a headache from a problem child. I had to take care of some technical difficulties. The other is pain, although not quite recovered from my shoulder replacement surgery, my hips are getting quite worse and sitting for extended amount of time poses problems. While I wait to schedule my surgery date (which again I will blog the recovery process) I am thinking of doing maybe a more extent video too “not sure” the jury is still out on that decision.
As I look back on the last 5 years of my “life after a coma” it dawned on me along with all my questions of WHY WHY WHY, I realized WHY not now. See although I was born with sickle cell disease and had suffered from as long as I could remember age 6 the damage this disease causes didn’t affect me till now in my 40’s. God allowed me to live a life of gratitude, I had one son when I was told I shouldn’t. I raised him single-handedly, I obtained an education. All this with minor complications or maybe the better phrase is nothing life threatening. The month I ended up in the coma, I had just celebrated my son’s 23rd birthday. We lived in a state where we had no immediate family but he was able to drive and more of less self sufficient. I hounded him to find a job, but now I know, don’t understand but I know if he had a job as a teenager he would NEVER get the time to be at my bedside 24/7. If that timing was any different I situation would of been worse. A young man, with mother in a coma, no family, life would of really been gloomy.
My reflections are more happier now. My son is by far the son I wanted him to be based on who I think he should be, I now know GOD made him out to be WHO I NEEDED when my life became it’s darkest. I wanted a son so I could have Kudos. Instead I got a son who took care of his mother when no one was watching or there was no one else to take care of her, but in his own way and always with patience. Yes I have had 2 major surgeries about to be 3, Yes, I lost it all, yes, I have been in pain and suffering. Yes, we have had to move around to accommodate different circumstances. Yes, some days there were more bills than money, Yes, there have been times when food was a luxury to us. Yes, I have a degree but can’t use it to the fullest, Yes, I have to find myself because the game has changed…..BUT ONE thing for sure, GOD NEVER LEFT ME! I can see clearly now more than I have in the last 5 years that the storm is calming down. No more cloudiness. No more heartache and pain, less suffering.
Now. don’t think I haven’t had a lot to say I did and do but it will be slowly coming in. In the meantime I share some encouragement. Daily and especially early morning times I wake up early just lay on the bed in the still of morning and just marvel at the small blessings in my life and…. praise is what I do.
Praise is a fundamental part of the Christian faith. And your praise grows through encountering God and meditating on His Word. The following verses, when memorized, can help your life demonstrate praise to God! Let your life be transformed by memorizing scripture!
Psalms 30:4 Sing unto the Lord, O ye saints of his, and give thanks at the remembrance of his holiness.at…: or, to the memorial
Psalms 30:5 For his anger endureth but a moment; in his favour is life: weeping may endure for a night, but joy cometh in the morning.
Psalms 34:1 I will bless the Lord at all times: his praise shall continually be in my mouth
Psalms 106:1 Praise ye the Lord. O give thanks unto the Lord; for he is good: for his mercy endureth for ever.
Psalms 116:12 What shall I render unto the Lord for all his benefits toward me?
Psalms 145:2 Every day will I bless thee; and I will praise thy name for ever and ever.
Habakkuk 3:17-18 Although the fig tree shall not blossom, neither shall fruit be in the vines; the labor of the olive shall fail, and the fields shall yield no meat; the flock shall be cut off from the fold, and there shall be no herd in the stalls:fail: Heb. lie 18 Yet I will rejoice in the Lord, I will joy in the God of my salvation.
Hebrews 13:15 By him therefore let us offer the sacrifice of praise to God continually, that is, the fruit of our lips giving thanks to his name.
Everything is in God’s timing, not yours or hers, or his… be patient! TRUST me patience is a very very hard thing and it take practice. If you keep failing the test you will keep getting tested. Now is the time to stop and get out your own way.
Thanks – Phoenix – Live, Love, Laugh and Learn!